Tag: ghosts, writing, poetry, art
The Artist becomes a Human
(Something must be surrendered)
It is difficult to explain the position of the artist’s right hand,
the mannered spread of the slender fingers of her left hand
marks a place in an open book.
The female figure in the sculpture also has a certain sphinx like
quality, the split ego of the solitary narcisstic individual.
Facing each other in a deliberately archaic manner,
the three reluctant heroes evaluate the situation.
Their gaze is focused in an expression of playful, yet slightly anxious
anticipation, in the search for an explanation of her terrible fate:
The bloom of youth
The Road Back, The Ordinary World-
his comparison of the fall of hair with running water.
Will he choose in accordance with his old, flawed ways?
The year 1886, the first of these climactic phases,
dominated the entire familty with her ‘often cruel influence’
(which she must have found increasingly upsetting).
.
While the Face, marked by Age
returns swiftly to the throne room, laying the broom before the ferocious floating Head.
The human half of a female centaur is seen struggling to break free of her lower, animal self,
while
she is commiting murder and suicide in effigy.
(Something must be given back)
The much smaller torso of Venus appears to nestle up to the Head,
emerging from the cloud of marble.
The victim of a misfortune,
or of an understandable error of judgment.
Sympathetic,
reflecting the choice of the new person she has become.
Strengh is needed for the return to the upper world.
INSPIRED BY:
Auguste Rodin and Camille Claudel
The Writer’s Journey
The Art of the Portrait
The Urchin in the Alley
I was in Boston where I had never been before, looking at a truncated map which was also printed in a manner too small for my weak eyes. Wandering about the city, I found myself lost, on cobble stone streets in an alley which ran between two ancient brick buildings. I noticed a street urchin leaning against the damp wall, cap pulled down but very obviously watching me. I hailed to him for some assistance.
“Boy!” I called. “Come here this instant. Quick quick, come assist an old man.”
The scrungy creature had been leaning against the brick wall in a most surly manner. He raised his head not an inch, but I still sensed a watchfulness, a somnolent presence, a sickly stare.
“Here! Boy! Where on this map do you see Winthrop?”
My weak eyesight unfortunately put me at the mercy of such creatures. He took his time coming over, and he apparently had all the time in the world whereas I was needing to be gone from this dreary place in East Boston and on my way to my niece’s luncheon that instant! That I required the services of such a one curled my inner hair.
“What you need Guv’nor?” he asked. I contemplated the question, which should have been plain as I had stated my desire in a clear and firm voice, and I considered the title he had used in greeting me, sounding alarmingly like a pseudo-Dickens speech that was being used to mock me.
“Nevermind lad,” I said curtly, folding the miniscule map with some difficulty. “I’ll take care of this myself.”
I made a smart turn and took the opportunity to leave that place when he again spoke, very quickly appearing in front of my and blocking my egress:
“I’m awful so-wee Guv’nor, didn’t know you had such a sensitive bug up yer rump.”
I could hardly believe this. Did my station count for nothing? This…boy addressing me in this manner. Outrageous! But underneath my outrage, the smallest sense of danger.
“Pardon me, why in the world do you think you can speak to one of your betters in this manner?”
The urchin lowered his head and stared at me from under his cap. Oh, he played his part to the hilt so that I almost laughed aloud! Until-
“You best watch your-sef Guv’nor, or I’ll be readin’ that map from the inside o’ your belly.” He then paused for effect before popping open a knife. A very long, sharp, thin blade. “With me knife,” he added, unnecessarily.
As I have often been complimented on my keen sense of timing, I sensed that at this juncture leaving the alley would be the best action to take.
I addressed him as I would a long time friend as I inched very slowly around him. “Well old fellow, I’d best be going, don’t want to keep the party waiting! You know Elise’s temper can get the best of her!”
And I ran for my life.
Several blocks later I dared to slow and look back. No creature, no urchin flailing behind me. Empty streets, fog rolling in.
I resolved to purchase some much needed spectacles. And a new map.
Fortune -6
2020
Lucy sat in the intense December sunshine listening to Santa Baby on the radio, a vague uneasiness humming underneath her peaceful idle. She wondered why she didn’t feel more lonely, more distressed as the holidays in an ordinary year typically brought on those moods in abundance. There was a sense of loose expectancy in the air; things could go well or really wrong.
She was set to see her parents later, which made her feel lucky as not everyone was cleared to see their families. She had put in her permission slip at the grocery store a month ago and had found out that she had been approved! They would all still be required to wear masks of course and be seated in different parts of the house while they visited. But the favorite streaming service of the moment would help them communicate even though they were literally feet away from each other and could have heard each other loudly whisper.
Berta, Lucy’s mom had told her she was to sit in the former living room, now stripped of furniture and covered in virus-repellant, santized plastic sheets. A comfortable chair would be set out for Lucy, and a tv tray, with a seperate table for the laptop. Maybe they’d add a tiny Christmas tree or some holly to the decor! What fun!- Lucy wasn’t good at pretending to be happy when she wasn’t.
She told herself to be grateful for what she did have – some were spending their holiday in those horrid sounding virus camps, trying to rehabilitate their wasted limbs and their hopeless souls through rigorous computer games and “track-walking”. It was said that catching the virus could lead to a debilitating sense of ennui and self-loathing. But that might have also been a rumor.
No one knew anymore which news outlet broadcasted truth or fantastical tale, it seemed to be a competition as to who could rile the most citizens. Everyone Lucy knew had their favorite source and they believed in that and only that and would only take that outlet as gospel.
And later she had that show to look forward to, although it would probably be a bust, and she’d open the presents she’d gotten for herself. If her best friend hadn’t disappeared in August she would probably have FaceTimed with her.
The sun was bright but not particularly warm or comforting. She contemplated that her strange sense of peace was due to a complete dislocation of herself in this current reality. All of the old mile markers had become unimportant. The future was uncertain and vague. There had always been more guard rails up in life and this was the most altered reality she had ever encountered.
She was pretty excited to use her new hair straightener tomorrow.
this is part 6 of a 6 part series
Fortune -5
The ambulance came to take her away.
Lucy stood out in the parking lot with the rest of the diners and staff, the ones that had stayed. Lucy had seen some patrons running out the emergency fire door. “I wonder if they paid,” she had thought as the chaos was ramping up.
It seemed like it had been years since she first saw that girl looking at her through the fishtanks, but it had probably only been a half an hour. Time was feeling very fuzzy to Lucy so she concentrated on breathing evenly and naming things that she saw. “Store” and “blue car” and “streetlight”.
Would they take her to a mental hospital? Lock her up?
The door to the ambulance closed from the inside and the vehicle started away. Lucy wondered if she should go back in to get her left-overs but she didn’t want to take a remembrance of this evening home with her.
The wildfires were still burning in some places on the west coast. The night air was easier to breathe than the smoky, daytime air. Because it was late summer the hot days kept the smoke thick and ,hovering and the sun in the sky turned a bright orange. Breathing outside made you want to lick your mouth like a dog that has tasted something strange.
Lucy got in her car and put the key into the ignition. She looked up, through the windshield, and saw a flyer under the wiper. She unrolled her window and craned her body to reach it.
A blank piece of paper. No, there was a qvc code printed on one side, blank on the other. Just a plain piece of copy paper with that…what was that thing anyway, like a bar code? “I have no idea what to do with this thing,” she thought. It made her shiver a little to think of someone putting that on her car. A bread crumb, a sign post to what? Why her.
She crumpled the paper and threw it on the floor of the passenger side.
And then in a change of mind, she reached over to grab the paper and smoothed it open on the seat. Smoothed it and folded it, putting in her purse. She would ask her son what that symbol was, he was a millienial and knew about stuff like this. And how to use it.
this is the 5th installment in a 5 part series
Fortune – 4
Lucy was determined to be festive.
She hauled a small Christmas tree home and decorated it with pretty, dried fall leaves, moss, sticks, random flowers that were still blooming in December, (mums and hydrangeas) that she picked in the neighborhood. She bought electric lights on Amazon, and because she also got free shipping, she bought 3 of the white lights on green wire and two pairs of icicle lights, one white and one red. It turned out to be rather bright in her apartment but she enjoyed the festive, party like atmosphere it created. She missed being in crowds of people, making eye contact with others up close, laughing, oh the sound of other people’s laughter! When she got it it was like a drug. Had the virus made her co-dependent? What if she were marooned on an island or another planet by herself, would she survive? That would probably be even more isolating.
And there was plenty of food at the store, cleaning products. People weren’t going as crazy stocking up because of random rumors of military enforced curfews and black-outs. None of which happened, but still, the anticipation of such events was fear provoking enough!
Lucy planned her Christmas Day very carefully: She would wake up early and walk, come home and make Mexican hot chocolate, watch as much Netflix and Amazon as she wanted, cook the vegan seitan steak and grill carrots, light her candles, turn off some of the Christmas lights and then watch that show on YouTube.
She had seen a new piece of graffiti while on her daily neighborhood rambling. She lived in an old seaport and sadly this graffiti was on a brick building. It said TheFUTUREiscoming. One word but FUTURE was capitalized. She felt an odd kind of sensation while reading it and it stuck in her brain, so when she got home she looked it up on her laptop. Why not. It led her to a YouTube video, a strangely luminous film of downtown Seattle at night. So empty! And the anonymous camera went into vacant buildings and on roof tops, shooting out into Elliot Bay at night, the wind whipping and moaning over the cameras microphone.
At the end of the video was a date, “12/25/20” and “watch”. So, since Lucy had planned out her Christmas Day in order to subvert the self-pitying loneliness that threatened to appear, wrapped and sitting expectantly under the mini-tree, she also planned to watch the “broadcast” or whatever it was. For a few minutes…it would buy her time before she could hide in her bedroom and watch Hoarders for the night.
this is the 4th installment in the series





